For the past couple of years I’ve been struggling with my weight. Having kids back to back then surgery and dealing with prior injuries you become unmotivated. It’s constant struggle mentally and physically trying to get out or even doing workouts around the house. Well this past week my sister suggested that her husband and I support each other virtually. Since she’s pregnant this is on us. Anything is better than nothing. This is a great opportunity for moms at home that are struggling to get back in shape. You just find someone who will push you and challenge you even if they’re not there physically. You have to create a creative mind because you don’t want to be outdone and that will push you even more.
My goal is to get from 175lbs to 150 lbs in 4-6 months. That’s a very realistic goal. In order to do well and accomplish your goals you have to make sure that they’re realistic. You can’t say I’m going to lost 10lbs in 2 weeks. That’s setting you up for failure. There are some people who can but if you know that you have a very busy life and there are days that you will not be able to workout then set a goal that you can work towards at a decent pace. I gave myself time because I want to make sure I make it to that finish line.
This is very difficult for me to talk about to this day but knowing that this monster can affect the ones close to you at anytime has affected me even more than I thought it would. In the military, we were constantly training on suicide prevention. I mean it was classes after classes, presentations, role-playing and even the entire base would shut down. I’ve always ask myself when will this end? Or how can they make it less boring? This was only because I’ve never thought that the issues I myself was battling would take over the way I felt about life and the ones around me.
For years I was battling abandonment, loneliness, depression and anxiety. No one knew this because I hid it well. Then it got worst. When I found out we couldn’t get pregnant it crushed me. Not even my husband could help me. Waking up each day wondering why are you even alive and feeling like you didn’t matter to anyone is unexplainable to me now. I thought about suicide many times but not at my hands. I wanted someone to take me out of this world. While driving to work, home or just to the store, I would hope that someone would hit me and I would just die. I was always angry or mean. I thought about the same thing over and over. It drove me insane.
I was too ashamed to seek help because I didn’t think anyone or anything could but at this point I knew I really needed help. I was in counseling and took medication. After a while even my husband saw a huge improvement. In the end I was overall diagnosed with Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), depression and anxiety disorder. I still struggle with some things but I have a new outcome on life and what matters most to me. As I share this I think of all those years that I was in pain. The nights I would cry myself to sleep or just walking around the house crying. My husband and I were meant to be because without him coming into my life, I may not have made it through.
On that note, as you go through your day just be aware of those around you. Don’t be afraid to smile or ask someone how’re they doing because that gesture or those words may just be the ones to save a person’s life. If you think a family member or friend is depressed or doing things that seems out of their normal routine, ask them if they’re thinking of suicide? You may just break that ice and they may just break down and confide in you. We are all someone’s child and every life matters.
Cooking can be a very hard task especailly with three kids under the age of 3 years running around and screaming majority of the time. If you have patience and determination to be a stay-at-home mom than anything is possible. Some may think that it’s not a job but until they’re in your shoes, they will never understand that hard work you actually put into it. So sometimes I ultimately started looking for ways to make food more interesting, simple but still tasty. You can always add to or take away depending on what taste you love more. I do hope everyone try it and tell me what they think.
1 lb. ground beef (if you don’t want it soft add extra 1/2 lb. beef)
I’m not a cooking expert, a nutritionist, or in general a food expert but I’m sure about one thing, I know what my family enjoys to eat. I try to be creative in everything I do and make it interesting so that every time I cook it’s never dull. I do hope everyone enjoy gets a chance to try this because it’s absolutely delicious. Don’t be afraid to make it your own.
So let’s talk about transitioning from the military service to the civilian life. I know some of you can relate and some cannot. It’s okay! You can still chime in and share what your thoughts are. Well I was in the Army from the age of 17. Being in high school and signing a military contract was one of the hardest things that a child can ever do but to me it was the easiest decisions I’ve made in my life.
Well, after over 15 years I’m no longer that Soldier and I’m now searching for a new identity. I say identity because after being away from that life I feel like I’m still in that transitioning phase. That’s a long time trying to find a purpose of why you were created and who you really are. To this day I reminisce about putting that uniform on because I grew up and developed as an individual during that time. Continue reading “Transitioning from the military to the civilian life”